Post-Finale

Done with All 4 papers

EMQ, MEQ and 2 OSCE

It's tough.

Really really tough.

And tmrw is the day. 

Result. 

I'm so nervous of it.

One month and xx days left.

Ya Allah, I'm so scared.

dalam hati sape yg tahu.

Trainee lecturer???

I dun even know how to teach ppl.

Dear awak,

Even though I'm very nice to other ppl.

But in my heart, you are the only one.

Saranghamnida. :)

I Love You.

One step closer

Happy

Happy

Happy

Seriously, sangat Happy. :)

Palpitation.

Insomnia.

I think I'm going to die because of it.

SPA Interview

Interviewer: Whoa. U look so happy today. Tell me, what are the happiest moments in life

Candidate A: Hehe. err.. errr.. Getting married?

Intervieweer: Ok. other than that?

Candidate A: Having a child?

Alhamdulillah.

I've passed Medical long case last week.

Exam with Prof Datuk Gurdeep.

He such a nice examiner.

An uncle with COPD.

Alhamudillah, I managed to answer all the questions during the discussion.

It all depend on your luck

Perfect time.

Where are you?

I really need you.

Waiting, waiting and waiting

Please dun be like that.

I beg you.

:(

Had our SPA/KKM/MMC briefing last monday

Under the new gov scheme SBPA, Doctors will be put under name of Pegawai Perubatan UD 1-1 (previously Pegawai Perubatan UD 41).

Dah nak keje dah T_T

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Passed observed long case after 3rd attempt.

Relieved. Syukur.

A Chinese women with choledocholithiasis.

Officially ended Surgical posting with good news.

Going to enter medical next week.

I need a break.

I wanna be awayyyyy from medicine for moment.

For the past few weeks, my life have been turned upside down.

Sorry groupmates kerane menyusahkan.

And Thanks sbb understand. Sayang korang.

Lepas satu. satu datang.

Ya Allah, banyak nye dugaan.

I can't cope with it.

If xde inhibition dkt higher thinking, suicide might be an option. (Jauh kan lah)

Bila engkau letih & hilang rasa semangat, Allah tahu betapa kamu telah mencuba sedaya upaya, Bila tangisan mu berpanjangan & hatimu kedukaan, Allah telah mengira setiap titisan air mata mu, Bila engkau rasa ketinggalan & masa meninggalkan mu, Allah sentiasa disisimu. Bila engkau telah mencuba tp x tau arah tujuan, percayalah... Allah ada jln penyelesaian

Ya Allah

please la lulus OLC next week.

Sangat sangat tidak larat nak pergi hospital almost everyday

doing rounds. day and night

Hopefully dapat a straight forward and easy case.

Co-operative patient

Mood examiner yang baik..

Sincerely,

A tired medical student

Sorry friends,

Life is so haywire right now.

Mian.

Sedih. Sedih. Sedih.

:(

Tak excited pun nak pg briefing for KKM next tuesday

Sedih gile bile sorg demi sorg kwn lepas OLC

Diri sendiri?

T_T

Nak tolong orang.

Diri sendiri pun xlepas OLC mcm mane?

T_T

Alhamdulillah.

He's in a good mood today.

No yelling in the ward like previous group.

And thank you, patient bed X for saving my life

Manage to cover 5 beds today.

A painless hematuria patient

An acute abdomen with fever

A liver abscess

An ascending cholangitis

A carcinoma of head of pancreas

It's tiring. I have give my best

and I dun care if u are going to yell at me tmrw.

Sincerely,

A tired and depressed medical student

Ya Allah. I have 2 wards to be covered tonight.

7 beds with full clerking.

No excuses.

Either patient refuse or language barrier.

In these unmotivated state, how am I going make through of it.

T_T

Dear friends,

The pain is so severe.

Just like pancreatic CA pain.

I can't bear with it. ;(

Surrounded by negativity

Borderline for 2nd time.

It's the end of the world in my mind.

Fed up and tired of it.

Sincerely,

A depressed Medical Student.

this is probably one of the most difficult moment in my life.

Home. Study.

Feels like quitting.

Why it is so hard. Why why why.